Hi! My name is Bita. I am a certified Eating Disorder Recovery Coach from the Carolyn Costin Institute.
As for me, I spent several years of my life dedicated to my eating disorder. Dieting during my adolescence opened the door. Shortly after, a plethora of rules emerged, a list of forbidden foods was formed, and an extensive exercise regime was designed. I was hooked, and had developed an eating disorder which later became me, overcame me, and finally, disenabled me to engage in any other activity. I did anything to satisfy the needs of my eating disorder and forgot all about my own. While at the time, I could not picture living my life without my eating disorder, I knew I could no longer move forward in life with it. With this in mind, I did not know what to expect of recovery or if it could be attained. Nevertheless, I had to find out.
I spent the following years resisting what had become habitual eating disorder thoughts and behaviors and learned to disengage from them and engage in life. I worked diligently towards health and success and simultaneously attended school. I enjoyed the little things in life, like feeling the sand between my toes at the beach, appreciated my body for what it allowed me to do, and no longer based my value on my physique.
What I learned from my experience is that recovery is a process that requires time, patience, and compassion. I had good days, bad days, and days where I felt stuck.There were also times when I wondered if recovery was even possible. Today, I know recovery is real because I live a life free from an eating disorder. It was easy to give up hope during the healing process, but being able to make it through the really tough times is so rewarding at the end.
I received a bachelor’s degree in Psychology from Loyola Marymount University, followed by a master’s degree in Social Work from the University of Southern California. With the desire to help others who suffered from disorders like I did, I worked as an Exposure Response Prevention coach in a rehabilitation center for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I am also the author of Crippled by Fear: My Struggle to Overcome a Life of Disorders.